random ranting.

The one?
Mr. right?
Soul mate?

Stupid words for stupid people that belive there is such a stupid thing as love.
We go to these movies they make us belive that no matter how bad someone stuffs up in the end the person they love will forgive them and all will be well. sorry people but thats not realitly. reality is where if you stuff up there are no second chances, where love does not last for ever. how could it when it does not exist. "the greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return" pffftt that is stupid. that not somthing we learn thats what movies tell us will happen. that love is an actual thing. there is only one thing and that is lust, love does not exist. thats what drives us untill the point where we are so used to this person we are too lazy to leave them.

i will spend hours trying to convice my self that all this i true. in my heart i will always know all i just typed is false and will never be true. i will try to make myself belive there is no such thing as love, but if there is no such thing then why do i cry over it? oh well. i thought i found my one, Mr. right, soul mate or whatever people like to call it. that one person you would give up anything for. that person you never want to let go of, that person you want to marry, that person who actually takes all your messed up stuff. now i see that it was really nothing, sure i may have felt like that, but if he was really any of those things then he wouldn't have move on in only a month, he would have fought for me, he would have chased after me when i did it. if only he had seen me when i walk past his work that night, if he had come out and seen me then i could have taken it back, she wouldn't have been able to stop me. oh well, it's not his fault, it never will be. i will have to live with the fact that it's mine.