innocence

there i was looking and i saw...well i did see but it felt like more than seeing....i saw these eyes. they were blue a light, almost gray but stark blue. they were put on to an Innocent face those eyes. they looked Innocent too, didn't they? they looked Innocent to me. it seems once i am this age no one is Innocent no more no matter how much they look the part. no one at all is Innocent they all have been changed. when did life become like this? is there just this one age where everyone stops being Innocent? i guess it just what we do. we get to the point where we ain't innocent, right? then with no more innocents things become more and more complicated? so that only lead in to the fact that the less innocent we get the more complicated everything gets. great I'm just so looking forward to this... (that was sarcasm)

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Happy!!!!

It's been a long time since i have felt properly happy and then here i am today finally moved on.
finally happy again .
to be truly happy is a hard thing for deep down no matter how much we hide it we still feel the pain.
it's hard to move on from pain people that hurt you, i know that just as well as anyone.
this facade of happiness we put on everyday helps and we may think we are happy but that's not always the case.
so i suggest we don't be pessimistic even when we do feel crap because other wise you end up like.....
but my point is be happy

math is fun

I am one of the few people in this world that like math, particularly algebra.
substatuting numbers for letters is fun.
while being random with mara, I came up with this:
if F =/= H
and H = D
then D =/= F
therefore WW = T

as long as you understand
=/= is: does not =

i belive math is fun!

always.

always,
why,
me?
never,
forever?
how?
no,
when?
now.
we?
us?
sure?
scared.
stupid.
knowing?
wondering.
thought?
life?
time.
waste.
who?
me?
you.
yours?
mine?
lost.
found?
smile?
can't.
sigh.
forgotten?
always.
love?

thank you

i told you so so many times it will all be fine in the end.

you never belived me and look where we are now.

look whats happening whats developing for us.

why is it that this seems to be more, oh so much more than i ever expected?

thank you.

you made me happy when i never thought i could be.

i belive i made you happy too. finally you can say life is good.

thank you so much.

i have no clue what i'm saying

I just found out something i didn't want to know.
I know something i shouldn't.
Yet i know about 0.0001 of all there is to know.
Does this make me you feel stupid?
It shouldn't we may be small and get lost in crowds but we can make a difference no matter how small.
One person desided pluto was no longer a planet got some people on there side and now it's not.
though some of us belive it still is.
One preson can take many lives that makes a difference just not a good one.
There are so many thing we can do to make a difference.
But for the moment i'm just going to plot my taking over of the world then i can make a difference with out anyone stoping me.

Well this went off in a direction i didn't expect. :P

i miss you

It been so long i thought i was over it, then why now when I'm just starting to move on must it come back?
After so long of thinking "it never would have worked out anyways" do i suddenly find myself wanting it all back.
Those endless nights of wanting you next to me. the talking that lasted for hours on end.
That's what i miss about you why did it have to end the way it did i think i fell for someone for the first time and yet for the first time i felt the pain that I'm sure i had coursed to other people.
I regret it so much i wish i didn't hurt them the way you hurt me.
If i went back to that night and died at least i would know that i died happy

I miss you...unfortunately

not knowing

life is easier not knowing,

not knowing pain,
not knowing hurt,
not knowing that one thing that will change you world,
not knowing good things untill they are right there in front of you,
not knowing a joy untill you have found someone speacil to share it with.

sometimes its better not to know.

this is not one of those times. XD

have you ever?

have you ever felt that smoething was all that you ever wanted?
have you ever thought, wow so this is what they were all talking about?
have you ever seen something and just thought it was the most beautiful thing you have ever seen?
have you ever missed someone so much it hurts?
have you ever wanted something that you can't have?
have you ever had a moment you never want to let go?
have you ever looked in to someones eyes and thought wow i love them?
have you ever looked in to someones eye and thought i love them, then think i really shouldn't?
have you ever thought maybe if i didn't do that things would be better right now?
have you ever hurt someone and regreted it but still thought it was the right think thought you could have done it better?

i have.

why?

horrible, horrible, horrible.
evil, evil, evil.
stupid, stupid, stupid.
why, why, why?
why does this always happen i guess its kinda stupid of me i mean this whole thing is stupid. still. i just don't know this hasn't happened before yet it feels so familiar. like its happened before but this time so much more. so then why this one time its just so much more special must this happen?
it's just all i have ever, ever looked for and i found it.
so why? why can't i once have this?

this is all i wish.

Gold stars

Today mi and Carly finally got our award for the national history competition and on our certificate was the most awesomeness entertaining best thing ever.....A GOLD STAR.
If you have ever got a gold star you will know what i mean.
After a while of looking at this gold star mi and Carly got an urge to peel it off and stick it to our heads and after much work trying not to we had decided to annoy the hell out of our teacher untill she decided to give up the stickers well we didn't actually annoy her but we still got the stickers.
Then after going through so much in tryin g to get these stickers they wouldn't stick to our heads. :'(

words

GOODO
one of the most freaking annoying words even though you will find it in no dictionary. meaning good just with a O.
AWESOMENESS
The best word ever. meaning the randomness.
THE RANDOMNESS
2ND best word ever. meaning Awesomeness.
CONTRADICTION
the word that annoys the hell out of Morgan. meaning to say/do the opposite of what you have said/done before.
ELABORATE
The word Leah keeps telling me to spell correctly. meaning tell me more.

the words i love (and hate) just because I'm weird.

help!! i need an idea.

ok well i have been sitting here for at least 1/2 an hour started typing something twice and still have nothing to blog about. so this is what i will do anyone with any idea no matter how stupid of what i can blog about please comment with an idea.

whats good about being a teenager...

is that when something that seemed like it ment the whole world comes to a stop you still know it just the begining.
this life, now, high school its just the start.
anything bad that happens now will just become a distent bler of a memory.
that my friend is the best part of being a teenager this right now is just the start and what happens now is not that imprortant though sometimes it sems so.

well.....

ok so leah sugested i make tis tho i has no ideas of what to write here i guess i will start with what i know:
death note rocks
i love to read
theater is my passion
there is one person i have to learn not to talk to
i miss someone i seem to hate
and some people are just too far away