guess the song from the lyrics.

so here i'm putting my fav lines from random songs i listen to, your job comment and guess what songs they are: (11 & 12 there for you morgan haha)

1. i thought i had all the answers, never giving in, but baby since you've gone, i admit that i was wrong.
2. it's hard now to let you be, i won't make excuses, i've made my peace.
3. to this place, to you babe, i can't stay away.
4. this is the last straw, don't wanna hurt anymore, you can tell me that your sorry but i won't believe you baby like i did before.
5. stupid girl I should have known, I should have known, that I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale.
6. and she said, i can count on you win or lose, it's gonna drown us from inside.
7. baby, baby, when we first meet i never felt something so strong.
8. i know my heart is cold, i take back all the things i told you, i'd trade my soul away for just another day to hold you.
9. and when you do your worst mmmm that feels the best.
10. you say you love me but you won't when you find out who i am.
11. tomorrow comes, sorrow becomes his soul mate.
12. never ever have i ever felt so low.
13. sometimes it's the risk of getting hurt thats beautiful and worse than being numb and feeling nothing at all.
14. i will wait straight through as i wait for you too, endlessly. (must be my fav song at the moment)
15. i'm just a girl, who kissed a boy, who is in love with someone else.
16. i only want sympathy in the form of you crawling in to bed with me.
17. you were the only face i'd ever known i was the light from the lamp on the floor. (lost the game)
18. thank you for not letting go when i said let me go.
19. can't you see everything you are belongs to me, the city like were fading i saw her on the pavement.
20. i've to fix the way i think, but i just never feel, never feel, alone.

can you guess them?

these walls

a life full of memories, moments and scenes.
but the ones that will matter are yet to be seen.
these places, these wall they hold all the secrets.
where we loved and we fought and everything else we regret.

these times are dark and ws me never knew.
just how did we really become me and you?
inside this room the walls close in.
i take this chance to pray for my sin.

we saw that what we were doing was just so wrong.
we both knew what was going to go on.
i know you know that I'm insane.
but babe it was you that made it this way.

the bottom of the never ending deep.

then i saw it. the bottom, i picked up speed as i swam i need to get to the bottom so i could push my way back up to the top. there is sea weed everywhere. as i touch my feet down to the bottom it is slippery, like the edges of out door pools that are not kept in perfect condition. the sea weed sweeps up against my leg begging me to stay with it at the bottom of this ocean. it's just as lonely as i am. i consider staying but the burning in my lungs reminds me i need air. i have no clue how far out to sea i am. i swam across the top for so long. with one quick push the sea weed lets me go and i swim to the top, it doesn't take me long but i can't keep track of time any more. i have no idea how long i have been swimming for. my mind, filled with so many thoughts of you, has messed up my ability to comprehend anything else. i try to see how far away the shore is but my eyes are stinging from the salt and my tears are clouding my vision. i only just realise how tired i am. all body body is aching, screming for me to give it a rest, i will once i move on to the shore.

P.s. i realise how the bottom of the never ending deep sounds stupid, but i never said it went down for ever. it just hasw no end on the sides.

random ranting.

The one?
Mr. right?
Soul mate?

Stupid words for stupid people that belive there is such a stupid thing as love.
We go to these movies they make us belive that no matter how bad someone stuffs up in the end the person they love will forgive them and all will be well. sorry people but thats not realitly. reality is where if you stuff up there are no second chances, where love does not last for ever. how could it when it does not exist. "the greatest thing you will ever learn is just to love and be loved in return" pffftt that is stupid. that not somthing we learn thats what movies tell us will happen. that love is an actual thing. there is only one thing and that is lust, love does not exist. thats what drives us untill the point where we are so used to this person we are too lazy to leave them.

i will spend hours trying to convice my self that all this i true. in my heart i will always know all i just typed is false and will never be true. i will try to make myself belive there is no such thing as love, but if there is no such thing then why do i cry over it? oh well. i thought i found my one, Mr. right, soul mate or whatever people like to call it. that one person you would give up anything for. that person you never want to let go of, that person you want to marry, that person who actually takes all your messed up stuff. now i see that it was really nothing, sure i may have felt like that, but if he was really any of those things then he wouldn't have move on in only a month, he would have fought for me, he would have chased after me when i did it. if only he had seen me when i walk past his work that night, if he had come out and seen me then i could have taken it back, she wouldn't have been able to stop me. oh well, it's not his fault, it never will be. i will have to live with the fact that it's mine.

memories.

carlos.
icy people. (and their dance)
Uno.
mulan.
scooter gang.
hiding under the hat.
"i like biscuit"
the constantly changing phone backgrounds.
the night in the car.
craxy.
my couch.

time to forget each and everyone of them.

stop and think

so there is was listening to a song, (don't go by hope partlow.) and one line jump out at me:
He remembers how he's not suppose to feel
on seconds thought all the lyrics in the whole bloody song make me think of things. of him. my...well her.. amazing.
remembers how hes not meant to feel. i like it. it speaks to me in so many ways.
All these stupid things that stop us from really feeling what we should. it could all disappear so quickly. in the blink of an eye.
i guess alL I'M really saying is stop and think
'if i died tomorrow would i regret the things i didn't feel?'

in the never ending deep

i hit the water it was freazing. the last hing i saw before i hit was you and her. my face felt so hot. hot and cold an amazing mixture of feelings. the salt gets in my eyes it stings but it is nothing compared the what i feel running though my body. it is frezing and boiling.
i swear you touched me before i jumped. i didn't see you do it but the fire i feel running from that spot tells me you did. you always had that effect on me. one touch and there was fire all over my body. the fire is slowly dieing and here it is the freazing this water is so cold. i will keep going.
i will keep swimming. i will keep going down, down, down. i still havn't hit the bottom. will there ever be a end to this? it is torturing me maybe it's a trick of the light but i keep seeing tha bottom but when i get there there is nothing but more water. will i ever find it?

love. what a stupid consept.

stuff it. i give up on it, it never works. so why try? no point really.
always mess it up.
so i think i will just have fun from now on.
who needs it?
why would you want it? it is so stupid.
does it even exist?
how would we know if it didn't?
so i will give up on it.

falling in to the never ending deep.

So there i was standing with you looking over the ocean, standing on that ledge. Oh the view really was amazing. I saw it first but you missed it. I pointed it out to you and we sat and waited to see it again, and there it was we both saw that flash of lightning. The waves started to get bigger, they splashed our faces and then it happened. The ledge had gotten slippery from the all the water, you slipped and fell in to the never ending deep, or did i push you...

There was nothing i could do, you hit the water with a small splash, i sat there and i cried.

When i saw you again, after believing for so long that you were gone, you were back again on that ledge, i should have been there with you instead you were alone, then someone else walk up to you. She was sitting there with you watching the water. I ran past you and this time I fell in to the never ending deep.

too much

so how much longer can i do this.
i cry too much.
i hurt too much.
i love you too much.
i need you too much.
we are ment to be.
you know it.
why are you ignoring it.
i love you, you love me.
fuck the world, fuck everything can't we just be happy?

Poison

Yeah, Babe, we both know i'm poisonous.

But Boy, you know your the cure.

So how is it we do the things we do?

We both know it all wrong but it feels so right.

Inside your veins, my poison pulses.

Some how you don't stop me.

Is it your addicted to me poison?

So maybe this is not right to do.

But can we do it again and again?

We let this river flow, it flows too fast.

For one more time we should let go.

Like we do while running down stairs.

Can we take this evil and make it good?

So we take our chances and don't let them waste.

I know we both need to stop.

I will sweep this dust under the carpet.

But i really want to clean it up again.

For the moment i will live in these memories

If they fade may i have replacements?

Will you take my poison again?

castles and dragons and knights.

for my amazing, though you may not me mine anymore.
this thing (i don't know what it is but random sentences) is pretty sucky but it says what i need it to.

i had a choice, i made mine.
you have a choice to be made.
don't do as i did and make a mistake.
but sometimes a step backwards is two forward.

does it have to be like this?

in this modern day, without castles and dragons and knights.
you are still my knight.
i am still your princess.
take me from this castle,
and save me from the dragon.

can't we take it back to before we went wrong?
maybe we could just fly away from here?
away from this world and it's problems.
a forever, just you and me and nights of stars and rooftops.

do you really mean what you say?
should i trust in you and hold on?
maybe i should just run like every time before?
yes i am sorry. but are you really sorry that I'm gone?

in this modern day, without castles and dragons and knights.
you are still my knight.
i am still your princess.
take me from this castle
and save me from the dragon.

if only you could be in my arms once more.
couldn't we just steal one night?

so when i rains take me inside.
we can sit in front of the fire and play uno.

in this modern day, without castles and dragons and knights.
you are still my knight.
i am still your princess.
take me from this castle
and save me from the dragon.

i was sacred before but not anymore.
you are more important than my fears.
yes, i am messed. but you are too.
that's what made us so perfect.

i have never dreamed.but now i forever dream of you.
if only reality could be better than my dreams again.

in this modern day, without castles and dragons and knight.
you are still my knight.
i am still your princess.
take me from this castle
and save me from the dragon.

i can't ever stop the fire your burning.
i guess i will just let it engulf me.

never seeing what i want. why continue?
if the door is locked why am i trying to open it?

in this modern day, without castles and dragons and knights.
you are still my knight.
i am still your princess.
take me from this castle
and save me from the dragon.

do you get home and think of me?
is it that easy for you to turn me off?
if only i could stop the trap which is my mind.

there is still this random yellow band on my wrist.
it will never leave my wrist.
as long as my heart yearns for you this will be my proof.
forevermore i will wish my hand to be in yours.

in this modern day, without castles and dragons and knights.
i wish you were still my amazing.
i will forever be your princess.
take me from this world
and save me from myself.

your lady, i love you. xo

right?

i didn't.
i could.

i was.

i still might. right?

please come back. it won't pass.

I thought you were going to wait for me?
I always will love you.
I'm sorry take me back please?