My borron land

So now, as we speak, the ending I once feared is becoming reality right in front of my eyes. I do what I can to stop it but how can one stop the inevitable. Try as I might the world will not stop turning at my command. So I will sit, I will wait, I will watch as the rain falls around me and I slowly drown. It's crumbling, no, crashing down around me. I cannot fight it anymore. The world I thought I once owned was never really ment to be mine to begin with. Queen of this once amazing but now barron land. I will fight for my throne, but the poison is already in my vains.

me, me, me.

before you i was lost, with nothing to live for any more,
you came along and i had hope, i had fun and i was happy,
now, now it's so hard, i love you but you don't seem to want me like you used to...
i want it to be me, me, me, but it just seems to be her, her, her.
i live for you, you're part of me, but you live for something or maybe someone else.
i guess this is karma, i did a bad thing so i will have a bad thing done to me.
i can't help but think this is ending, but when i mention it you say no.
all i want is to be with you, if you have to be with her aswell then ok, just don't leave me.
i can't be without you, i will put up with anything to be with you.
i love you, and will to the day i die. no matter what this world holds for us i'll be yours even if you're not mine.
so from now till forever, i will love you.
i'll wait for you. even if my world comes crashing down.

unknown hurt.

betrayed by what you thought was good,
a night for which the memory stick,
trying to ignore all you thought you saw,
but in the end it all is pain,
gone has the problem,
the solution yet to come,
take this away,
let me become who i was before.

without.

dying without his touch, longing to feel, longing to breathe.
taking me over in pain, the sound of his voice, the touch of his hand.
all I am with out, a shell with no emotion, a heartless beast.
when his eyes meet mine, when he says "your beautiful", when his lips touch mine.
when he says those three little words, those words that mean the world.
"I love you"
<3

the never ending deep (alternate ending)

I feel hot all over, a slowly open my eyes to see someone standing above me. i must have fallen asleep, i think I'm sun burnt. he starts speaking though i can't make out anything that he is saying. i just nod, he grabs for my arm and picks me up, takes me away, i fall asleep in his arms.... i awake to be in an unknown place, somewhere i have never seen before, a place i have never known before. then i look over to the door way, my heart jumps, butterflies fill my gut, there he is the same guy from the beach, it been such a short amount of time, but i realise then that i. love. him.

more than a rawr.

So, about one in the moring, me: "oh, oh, oh, blog idea, must find paper and write" this is the result of that random idea XD

scared of more than a rawr,
frightening more than before,
becoming so much more real,
falling, head over heel,
just knowing you are near,
there is nothing left to fear.
so now that I'm saved,
i might just behave,
feeling that are not defined,
I'm really losing my mind.

control

fighting these thoughts,
they try to control me,
as i spread my wings,
let me come along,
make it happen again,
love mixed with hate,
i push, you pull.
highlighting these pages,
nightmares of dreams,
stealing secrets,
words of black.