the never ending deep (alternate ending)

I feel hot all over, a slowly open my eyes to see someone standing above me. i must have fallen asleep, i think I'm sun burnt. he starts speaking though i can't make out anything that he is saying. i just nod, he grabs for my arm and picks me up, takes me away, i fall asleep in his arms.... i awake to be in an unknown place, somewhere i have never seen before, a place i have never known before. then i look over to the door way, my heart jumps, butterflies fill my gut, there he is the same guy from the beach, it been such a short amount of time, but i realise then that i. love. him.

more than a rawr.

So, about one in the moring, me: "oh, oh, oh, blog idea, must find paper and write" this is the result of that random idea XD

scared of more than a rawr,
frightening more than before,
becoming so much more real,
falling, head over heel,
just knowing you are near,
there is nothing left to fear.
so now that I'm saved,
i might just behave,
feeling that are not defined,
I'm really losing my mind.

control

fighting these thoughts,
they try to control me,
as i spread my wings,
let me come along,
make it happen again,
love mixed with hate,
i push, you pull.
highlighting these pages,
nightmares of dreams,
stealing secrets,
words of black.

the edge of all reality

take my hand and take me away,
falling from the stars,
with a scary reality, no future.
these ropes that pull us tight,
lying on the floor, crimson carpet.
with just a second comes a end.
burning with desire,
a fire, so hard to control.
nights of passion with words and teeth,
screaming for that we can't have.
the floor from crimson to black,
hating all we love.
suffering though the pleasure.
taking what we can't, for fun.
burning with such a power.

take me under.

to the limit.

to the edge of all reality.

cause you know.

cause you know i love it.
on this track, going round the circle
repeating the steps of nights before.
walking, running, holding hands.
it's such a dangerous game.
to play it twice... oh we shouldn't.
i take my chance and jump.
I'll fly before i fall.
with no sleep and less chance.
i take this risk for what may be.
cause you know i hate it.

for you all those people we hate to love and love to hate.

XP

back in the never ending deep.

I feel hot all over, a slowly open my eyes to see someone standing above me. i must have fallen asleep, i think I'm sun burnt. he starts speaking though i can't make out anything that he is saying. i just nod, he grabs for my arm and picks me up, takes me away, i fall asleep in his arms.... i wake as the freezing water engulfs me, it feel good on my sun burn. my eyes open in the salt water and sting, i swim to the top, and look out over the water, i see him, standing on top of that same ledge i jumped off the first time. i will give up, i stop swimming and just sink...

So that's the end of the never ending deep, that did actually end. that was one of three ending i had, the other two were, he would either carry her off and they would be happy, or she would lie on the shore till she got swept off to sea again. i hope you liked it! XD

supposed school work #4

The heat of your touch runs up to my neck.
I shake not knowing if i can fall.
With the wind blowing stronger than ever.
Signs trying to show us the way.
Sleeping in empty beds of tomorrow.
Couriosity of what, that might.
Should we light this fire?

(This was on the back of my methods cheat sheet from my test today, haha, this is what happens when you finish early)

supposed school work #3

My heart beats faster,
You enter the room,
The touch it burns,
Burns that never heal,
Run towards that light,
This darkness follows me,
Never able to enter.

supposed school work #2

Fantasy beats reality and life is better than death. We walk on feet and not hands. Feeling beats fantasy, and reality is better than death. With out pain there is no pleasure.
So be a contradiction and show me what i don't want, cause that is what i want. Become what i hate so that i might love you.
We won't hold back, we will fight this war.
Set the stage and put on the show.
The act is easy.
Lets play pretend.

supposed school work #1

I'm falling to pieces unknown,
i really wish you could have known,
I've held me together for so long,
but no more because of those songs,
spend my time hiding my self from you,
i don't know what else i can do,
if you really knew how i felt,
would you run? would you hide?
i think i will just stay with my time to bide,
I'll be there, pick you up when you fall.

well that wasn't so bad i guess.... XD

school work?

The next four posts are random things i have wrote during class. (math) i'm not actually sure how long ago i wrote half of these. i have no clue if they are any good, heres to hoping. *fingers crossed*

direction

with my eyes closed, and my hands out in front of me i walk blindly with and expectation of what is coming but never really knowing. i keep hitting things, i fall, i move in a different direction. some how i keep bumping in to the samethings, that turn me one way, the back around. i'm going in circles, and i don't want to stop.

rules

i need rules (thanks to Meagan and Kyle for the idea.)
1. Truth, I will not lie.
2. School is important. I will do homework and i will get amazing marks.
3. I am a good girl. Enough said.
4. I will be straight forward. No more dancing around what i really wanna say.
5. I will NOT like for a taken guy. Not doing that again.


I will probably add more rules as life goes on, we will see.
Lets hope i don't break them, but i have a feeling i already have broke one..... haha