not knowing

life is easier not knowing,

not knowing pain,
not knowing hurt,
not knowing that one thing that will change you world,
not knowing good things untill they are right there in front of you,
not knowing a joy untill you have found someone speacil to share it with.

sometimes its better not to know.

this is not one of those times. XD

have you ever?

have you ever felt that smoething was all that you ever wanted?
have you ever thought, wow so this is what they were all talking about?
have you ever seen something and just thought it was the most beautiful thing you have ever seen?
have you ever missed someone so much it hurts?
have you ever wanted something that you can't have?
have you ever had a moment you never want to let go?
have you ever looked in to someones eyes and thought wow i love them?
have you ever looked in to someones eye and thought i love them, then think i really shouldn't?
have you ever thought maybe if i didn't do that things would be better right now?
have you ever hurt someone and regreted it but still thought it was the right think thought you could have done it better?

i have.

why?

horrible, horrible, horrible.
evil, evil, evil.
stupid, stupid, stupid.
why, why, why?
why does this always happen i guess its kinda stupid of me i mean this whole thing is stupid. still. i just don't know this hasn't happened before yet it feels so familiar. like its happened before but this time so much more. so then why this one time its just so much more special must this happen?
it's just all i have ever, ever looked for and i found it.
so why? why can't i once have this?

this is all i wish.

Gold stars

Today mi and Carly finally got our award for the national history competition and on our certificate was the most awesomeness entertaining best thing ever.....A GOLD STAR.
If you have ever got a gold star you will know what i mean.
After a while of looking at this gold star mi and Carly got an urge to peel it off and stick it to our heads and after much work trying not to we had decided to annoy the hell out of our teacher untill she decided to give up the stickers well we didn't actually annoy her but we still got the stickers.
Then after going through so much in tryin g to get these stickers they wouldn't stick to our heads. :'(

words

GOODO
one of the most freaking annoying words even though you will find it in no dictionary. meaning good just with a O.
AWESOMENESS
The best word ever. meaning the randomness.
THE RANDOMNESS
2ND best word ever. meaning Awesomeness.
CONTRADICTION
the word that annoys the hell out of Morgan. meaning to say/do the opposite of what you have said/done before.
ELABORATE
The word Leah keeps telling me to spell correctly. meaning tell me more.

the words i love (and hate) just because I'm weird.

help!! i need an idea.

ok well i have been sitting here for at least 1/2 an hour started typing something twice and still have nothing to blog about. so this is what i will do anyone with any idea no matter how stupid of what i can blog about please comment with an idea.